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[Feb. 5th, 2009|06:06 pm] |
midterm turned in. i think i did ok. thanks to the word limit, it seems a bit disjointed.
research paper turned in. skimmed 5 books and read 9 studies. i think i did what i could. i just hope he likes it.
no more papers until... finals week!
omg, yay!
hahaha.
but finals week, I have two essay finals and a research paper. fantastic.
but i'm sure sam would give us 2 weeks for the paper, the research paper will be assigned in the beginning of March (do it first!) and the 2nd final is one that can be done in 2 days... hopefully.
right now, i'm reading a paper on discourse and coherency. a startling insightful piece of work written by Jerry Hobbs, apparently a computer programmer or something.
what i realized is that... if i tried read this in HS, i wouldn't understand a thing.
i just love how this works out. how much we learn and how much we change. i think it is the most thrilling thing in the world. so many opportunities to be better and different. |
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[Apr. 23rd, 2008|07:34 pm] |
I did it! I fucking did it!
The first bit of good news, all this damn, sorry ass week.
Grandpa is still doing ok, he's not getting any worse, at least. I just hope this cancer doesn't break him or take him down, he's been through too much to fall from this stupid illness.
My dad is doing alright, in a lot of pain but he's hobbling. They took out all of his screws and the metal plates in his leg. Yeah, he's in a lot of pain.
I got a facebook, so you can add me if you want. I think I might have to ad you, i'm not sure, I set up a huge wall to prevent people from just adding me. If I have facebook, I'd like to keep my life to myself, if at all possible.
new e-mail?? jylim17@ucla.edu |
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[Apr. 4th, 2008|10:16 pm] |
work was... productive. i got the cash drawer just right, which made me smile
however, i first forgot to count the second part of the $100. so i was $100 short on the drawer... good lord. i almost lost my head.
work tomorrow again, at 9.
i seriously should be studying psych and phil 14... =(
shit. fuck.
i really want this week to go by. i want the 18th to come b/c that means i'm in the clear until finals, basically... wait, shit, i have my anthro test on the 16th.
fuck nuggets. |
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[Jul. 19th, 2006|11:11 am] |
i am not using AIM anymore.
got a new laptop.
want to talk to me? call me
(818) 486 - 4311 |
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[Jul. 16th, 2006|08:11 pm] |
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if i lay here
if i just lay here
would you lie with me
and just forget the world? |
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[May. 25th, 2006|09:19 pm] |
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A year has passed since I wrote my note
But I should have known this right from the start
Only hope can keep me together
Love can mend your life
But love can break your heart
I'll send an SOS to the world
I'll send an SOS to the world
I hope that someone gets my
Message in a bottle
what a sad, unhappy day...
nothing good happened, nothing right... every right is now a left and my world is upside down.
did i mention i will be going to college with andrew shaffer? |
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[Mar. 31st, 2006|02:36 am] |
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I just need to get this out of me...
I UNDERSTAND that he is upset that he couldn't be with his daughter in her hour of need. YES, IT SUCKS. But may I remind him that it was HIM that planned the client dinner ON the night of deed. Now he is letting it out ALL on me, yelling at me about how dirty my room is.'
"Your biggest sin is deferring things"
Well your biggest sin is being a pompus dick
that is what i have to say to him! FRIGGIN #*&@%!
(sorry the date is off, i'm using my bro's laptop and the time is off and... yeah... unimportant, i know)
i wish he would just ask me, stop laughing at my jokes, stop giving me gatsby smiles, for the love of god. SPIT IT OUT!!!! |
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[Feb. 19th, 2006|01:38 am] |
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so another night of doubt, confusion and pain.
thanks to the wonderful people of this planet, i am once again... depressed.
now don't break out the prozac, according to my sister i was just born with it. but i just need some... some human kindness. i guess.
now don't get me wrong, everyone generally (except a few) have been very nice to me and such. But i just need that connection. that one inside joke, that ONE look.
then everything will be fine.
like i said to ashley,
CaptBackfire17 (1:29:53 AM): i think...
CaptBackfire17 (1:29:55 AM): that
CaptBackfire17 (1:29:57 AM): hopefully
CaptBackfire17 (1:30:02 AM): everything will turn out as it should
CaptBackfire17 (1:30:10 AM): and the good will be rewarded, and the evil be smited
CaptBackfire17 (1:30:15 AM): and everything will balance out in the end
i've taken out the last part. lol. 'cause it makes a bad reference that doesn't need to be declared... but ashley knows *wink, wink*.
ANYROAD... i need to get away. i need to go to the end of some distant pier, drop a line and watch the sun rise. i need to row out to the middle of a lake, drop the anchor, lie down and let the waves rock me to sleep. i need to go to the top of a hill in the middle of a canyon and yell my head off. i need to fall asleep on a hammock on a fair spring day. i need to sit on the shore of the beach until the sun sets, with the person i love most in the entire world. with the person that i can be with until the mountains crumble to the sea...
oh stand, won't you stand, stand by me? |
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[Jan. 19th, 2006|08:08 pm] |
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I'm confused.
Too many wires are crossing, I'm getting odd feeds out of people...
I wish I can just go up to them, shake them wildly and get a real answer out of them. Like a TRUTHFUL Magic 8 Ball. *shakes* "I'm lying to you because I feel that you will think little of me if I tell you the truth." (just coming up with a reply, not directed toward anyone).
But then people are sensitive. They don't like the direct approach... I JUST WANT SOME ANSWERS!!!
I want to ask 5 people direct questions.
... but then again, I also want to marry John Mayer.
which is probably never happen. |
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[Dec. 17th, 2005|11:09 pm] |
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to lighten my mood.
I made a bug decision a little while ago.
I don't remember what it was, which prob'ly goes to show
That many times a simple choice can prove to be essential
Even though it often might appear inconsequential.
I must have been distracted when I left my home because
Left or right I'm sure I went.(I wonder which it was!)
Anyway, I never veered: I walked in that direction
Utterly absorbed it seems, in quiet introspection.
For no reason I can think of, I've wandered far astray.
And that is how I got to where I find myself today. |
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[Dec. 12th, 2005|07:40 pm] |
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| | Please Don't Tell Her by Jason Mraz | ] |
hear she's kickin ass across the board and rock two hundred thousand higher scorer
Just in time to save the world of being taken over
She's a warrior
I couldn't play again because the game it never end it never even landed on the can
And never let me in to spend my quarter
There's no love for me no more
Say it isn't so
How she easily come, how she easy go
Please don't tell her that I miss her
Because I don't
She was the girl with the broadest shoulders
But she would die before I crawled over them
She is taller than I am
She knew I wouldn't mind the view there
Or the altitude with a mouth full of air
She let me down and doubt came out until the now became later
Say that it isn't so
How she easily come, how she easy go
Please don't tell her that I've been meaning to miss her
Because I don't
Not for her
It's not that I'm mad to forgive
Forget what I said
That I'm crazy like the rest of us
And I'm crazier when I'm next to her, ha
So why after the all of everything that came and went
I care enough to still be singing of the bitter end and broken eras
I told you I don't but
I am only trying to be the best with my intent to cure
The rest is sure to lay me ease the plural hurts of the words of reverse psychology
That's easier said
Easier than done
Please don't dare tell her what I've become
Please don't mention all the attention I have drawn
Please don't bother cause she'll feel guilty when I'm gone
Because I'm crazy like the rest of us
And I'm crazier when I'm next to her
And it's amazing how she's self-assured
And I know she'd hate me if she knew my words
Do I hurt anymore
Do I hurt, well
I don't
I don't
I don't
the weirdest song EVER. i don't get it. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|09:51 pm] |
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i just watched half of the funniest movie i have ever seen.
well not the FUNNIEST, but it's in Korean, which made it it 10 times funnier.
let's recap, shall we?
the whole story is about this village that is SO isolated that during the Korean War, they didn't know there was a war going on! They don't eat meat and their lives revolve around farming and bee keeping. So when two South Korean soldiers come to their camp, they invite them in. All of the sudden, three NORTH Korean soldiers come in and they have this stand off for literally three days.
but all the while, this one man plane with a white guy flying it crashes nearby the village. He is badly wounded, they take care of him but he is desperate to get out of the village. But he only speaks English, they only speak Korean.
Now, the funny parts.
The South Koreans and North Koreans face each other with the village, about 15 people, huddled in the middle of it. They were all sitting on this raised platform that Koreans eat on durning hot summer days. But the soliders are standing and the North Koreans yell, "Sit down! Everyone! On the platform!" but 15 people can't ALL fit on this. So they all sit down and this one guy falls off and he goes, "oh! I am so sorry!" and he climbs back on. LOL.
the North Koreans are out of bullets, but they each have a grenade. The South Koreans have their guns and they just keep facing each other. They go through rain, heat wave and night, just facing each other. The Villagers have NO idea what's the big deal about a grenade or a gun, so they just move on with their lives, just watching the soldiers in their standoff. The white guy is there too, he just sits on the side, watching the soilders face off.
This girl skips in, sees the ring for the grenade pin and then pulls it. The soldier is so tired that he doesn't notice it, but he just keeps his grip on it. A day passes, he squeezes so tight, the handle snaps off and the grenade rolls on the ground. One of the South Korean soldiers throws himself on it, but it doesn't go off. So he stands up, gives a sigh and tosses the grenade which ends up rolling into a corn store house. The grenade goes off and popcorn goes flying through the air!!!
Oh, wait. When the Villagers were sitting in the platform, one of the guys goes, "Did you all see the path by the bee hive?" and they respond, "Oh yeah, I saw that, did you?" he goes, "Yes! I also saw the pig! There is this BIG pig that is bothering the hives! What can we do?" and a guy suggests, "I heard somewhere that if you grab the pig with one arm and punch him in the eye three times, he'll go away!" "Where did you hear that?" "From somewhere." "liar!" LOL
Oh, in the beginning when they found the white guy. there is this teacher of the village, and he has this First grade reader. He tries to talk to the white guy. The teacher says, "How are you?" and the white guy goes, "How do you think I'm doing? I'm in PAIN!" and the Teacher turns to the other villagers and goes, "I don't understand." and the elder of the village says, "Doesn't he speak English?" and the teacher says, "I think he's speaking incorrectly. This book says, 'How are you?' and he should say, 'I am fine, thank you. How are you?'." LOL LOL LOL!!!!
ha-ha! I love my ability to understand conversational Korean!!! ha-ha!!!!! |
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[Dec. 8th, 2005|07:49 pm] |
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Jangoon is missing...
we have no idea where he is, he hasn't been entered into the pound and we haven't see him ANYWHERE!!! What are we going to do?
I just hope he's not in pain... or that he wasn't in pain. the fucking gardeners, they let him loose. freaking assholes...
he hasn't come in, once. we haven't seen him running or anything, we asked people, they haven't seen him at all... i'm so worried. i haven't seen him for the past 4 1/2 hours. where the hell can he be?!
JANGOON!!! COME HOME, JANGOON!!! MY FLUFFY COMPANION!!!
fuzzy bum... *sniffs* |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|09:47 pm] |
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Remus Lupin
You are looking for someone sweet, intelligent, and
understanding. Although he may have big
troubles to overcome, with you by his side this
wolfman will at least have a non-judgmental,
loving romance.
Who is your Harry Potter love match? (for girls)
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wow... that is surprisingly accurate. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2005|07:32 pm] |
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life is... *sigh*
we always end up regretting something in the end... *sigh*
but one day, in this cosmic enterprise... that maybe, one day... when two people who secretly admire each other may meet at a chance moment in time, and connect.
one day...
not now, of course. lol. now is time for physics, math and social disorder. not love... maybe when i'm six feet under, there will be time for love... true, undying love.
"nothing quite takes the taste out of peanut butter like unrequited love." |
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[Dec. 2nd, 2005|08:43 pm] |
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*sigh* i just don't get it. Am I supposed to get it? Maybe I'm just supposed to remain guessing for the rest of my life??
today was just... another weird day. i know that Andrew doesn't like me. no one can try to change my view, except him. He just views me as a friend, and truthfully... I can't blame him. I flirt so subtly... if at all. How can anyone tell? I'm only really flirty with the people I am comfortable with. I would act super comfortable around Andrew, but I know he won't be comfortable so that makes ME uncomfortable. Not that I'm uncomfortable or nervous around him. In fact... I feel fine when I talk to him. I laugh and joke around, no flutters... the weird feeling only comes when I think about the fact that I'm going to see him. Weekends are peaceful because my mind knows that I won't see him until Monday. So no sick, weird feeling. People say they love that feeling... but I hate it. ugh, i hate it. it makes me feel weak and sick... i get sad and depressed whenever that feeling comes around...
anyway.
if anyone wants to do anything, let me know. but for now... i'm just gonna hide away in my room with the computer screen as my window to the world... it's always less harsher and more pleasant through the view of a flat screen. |
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[Dec. 1st, 2005|07:30 pm] |
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something to do... from allie.
01. I see: my computer.
02. I need: some peace.
03. I find: questions
04. I want: peace.
05. I have: worries.
06. I wish: that i could go to New York for Christmas.
07. I love: people. mainly tall, quiet, smart, funny compatriots.
08. I hate: being hated.
09. I miss: my sister.
10. I fear: being useless.
11. I feel: freakishly calm.
12. I hear: 'If I Ever Leave this World Alive' by Flogging Molly
13. I smell: my perfume.
14. I crave: the fresh air.
15. I search: for peace.
16. I wonder: where i'll be in 20 years.
17. I regret: not trying hard enough in life.
In The Last 48 Hours, Have You:
01. Cried: yes
02. Bought something: yes
03. Gotten sick: yes
04. Sang: yes
05. Eaten: yes
06. Been Kissed: no
07. Felt stupid: hm... no.
09. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't: yes
10. Met someone new: yes
11. Moved on: no
12. Talk to an ex: no
13. Missed an ex: no
14. Talked to someone you have a crush on: yes
15. Had a serious talk: yes
16. Missed someone: yes
17. Hugged someone: yes
18. Fought with your parents: actually, yes. weird...
19. Dreamed about someone you can't be with: yeah, Mr. Darcy.
Social Life:
01. Best girl friends: Caitlin and Company...
02. Best guy friends: Sam, Jeff... too many. :) i'm so lucky.
03. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: uh... haha. too sad, too sad...
04. If no, current dating partner: again... sad.
05. Hobbies: i thought it said Hobbes! lol. hobbies? reading... giving good rants... singing along poorly... dancing in the rain... day dreaming... personal motiviator... personal comedian.
06. Pager: nonexistent.
07. Are you center of attentention or wall flower?: depends when i want to be. generally i'm the center of attention.
08. What type automobile do you drive: honda accord
09. What type automobile do you wish you drove: mini-cooper
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date: on a date with a few friends.
11. Where is the best hangout: outside, under the stars... but a nice fire, chatting it up.
12. Do you have a job: yes
13. Do you attend church: no
14. Do you like being around people? sure, not all people, but generally... yes.
15. Who: strangers, friends, fellow students, certain tall, quiet, smart, stoic compatriots....
Friends:
01. Who have you known the longest: Nan-Nan.
02. Do you argue the most with: um... haha... i have no clue! oh! Roy.
03. Do you always get along with: Sam.
04. Is the most trustworthy: they're all trustworthy...
05. Makes you laugh the most: Caitlin :)
06. Has been there through all the hard times: Sam :) i looooove you!
07. Always has a man/woman: allie? i dunno...
08. Is the most sensitive: michelle
09. Has the coolest parents: probably Caitlin... around me, at least! lol. maybe Emilie.
10. Has the coolest siblings: Emilie
11. Is the most blunt: probably me... or brian. hm... i'm not sure. or Emily Souza... heck, we're all pretty straightforward!
12. Is the shyest: Tiffany
13. Is the most outgoing: Emilie
14. Is most Rebellious: Brooke.
15. Is most conservative: Crystal. i dunno, the first republican that popped into my head. and yes, i know that you didn't really mean THAT kind of conservative, but i wasn't going to dwell on it.
16. Is most likely to become famous: Jeff... oh, wait. Chris. lol, just to make jeff mad. Chris or Michael.
17. Is most likely to become rich: Chris again.
18. Is most likely to wind up in jail: Jeff, obviously!
19. Is most likely to have a million kids: Ken! lol!!!
20. Always wears a smile: Alex Ringe!!! I love Alex!!!!!!
21. Is the same mental age: Sam
26. Needs a good man/woman: All of us. lol. well, not ALL of us.... u know what i mean!
27. Never ever betrayed you: Sam, but then again... a lot of my friends have never 'betrayed' me. lol, they know that there are dire consequences.... *cracks knuckles*
Personal:
01. Who is your role model: michael palin and my sister... lol, i would like to point out that i put michael palin first... just to ruffle her feathers.
02. What are your pet peeves: people that are mean to their parents, little consideration for others in socially sensitive situations, sniveling weaklings, attention hoggers, the greedy... aw, hell. PEOPLE are my pet peeves.
03. Have you ever been in love: no... probably not.
04. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: lol... jesse reiss... too hott to touch.
05. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex: sadly... yes.
06. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after: yup, tall and smart. but mainly tall.
07. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s): white lies... to protect our souls from the outside world.
08. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you: wanted? yes. did? no.
09. Ever been cheated on: lol.
10. Ever said I love you to a significant other: not to a significant other, but to other people, yes.
11. Rather be dumper or dumped: Dumper or dumped... whatever. if it's time to bail, it's better to do it before we both drown and die.
12. Rather have a relationship or a "hookup": relationship
13. Want someone you don't have right now: yeah, 'In My Father's Den' by Maurice Gee (*HINT HINT* Christmas wish list want #1!!!)
14. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend: once... lol. turned out to be gay! lol. :) i still love him... just no that way. :)
15. Do you want to get married: that would be lovely.
16. Do you want kids: of course.
17. Do you believe in psychics: lol, you gotta! what would Mr. O-dog say?? *BAM!*
18. Do you believe you know the person whom you will marry at this point in time: uh... maybe?
19. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance: my hair, smile... i dunno, it's all lovely.
20. What is your favorite part of your emotional being: my social sensitivity sensors. I can detect anything from a mile away.
21. Are you happy with you: for the most part.
22. Are you happy with your life: lol, not until school is over, completely over.
23. Are you depressed right now?: not really.
24. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be: i would be able to sing really well. |
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[Nov. 30th, 2005|08:06 pm] |
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| | Stand by Me by Ben E. King | ] |
"if the sky... that we look upon... comes tumbling down... and the mountains... should crumble... to the sea... i won't cry, oh i won't cry! no i won't... shed a tear... just as long... as you stand... Stand By Me."
i love that song, has to be one of my FAVORITE songs EVER!!!
Anyway... school was just another one of those energy sucking, bottomless pit kind of days. Econ was a total waste of time, minus a few good laughs with friends, but otherwise... ugh. I don't think I ever saw Jeff put his finger in a girl's clevege before... i don't think i want to, ever again.
lol.
i'm tired... oh, so, freaking tired.
"so darling, darling, stand by me... oh stand, by me... oh stand now... stand by me... stand by me..."
i think caitlin has a good point, do i have TIME for a boyfriend??? Unless he's the nocturnal type who has a lot of time at night. yeah... work, tutoring, and then more tutoring, AND school?? I don't think I can give anyone the full attention they deserve... unless they're perfectly happy just hanging at school... which i can do.
"Everyday, it's a getting closer, going faster then a roller coaster, love like yours will surely come my way... a-hey, a-hey, a-hey hey...."
i know, the last one is NOT stand by me... it's 'Everyday' by Buddy Holly.
hm... tired. |
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